The big journey begins, May 11th, Mother's Day
I've never been so scared in my life.
|Mom and me 26 years ago|
I have prepared for this for the past 6 years, giving her only hints. Today was my finalized announcement. It's been playing over and over in my head for the past year. Not exactly how I imagined it would go, but close enough.
My announcement to her: "Happy Mother's Day! I have completed all the exams and there is only 2 more to go before I meet up with the surgeon and his team this June 11th! These tests will determine what happens next."
I've done nearly everything on my bucket list (so I'd have no regrets). I have used up my savings time and time again. This is nearly one of the last things on that list, and I won't feel fulfilled until it is done. There will be a new bucket list for the next chapter.
She responded the same way as she always did before I tell her I want to do something big--skydiving, bungee jumping, traveling, "Why do I have a girl like this?" But this time, not ending it with, "Why can't you be like the other good girls (traditional Asian stereotype), and not like a boy." Today, it ended with a long pause, before a series of sobs and deep breathes.
|Mom and me now|